Camp Wiawaka -Poem

Your given name
the name you are called
The name you have learned to call yourself
is only valuable when it lines up with
and accurately defines describes your function destination and destiny.
What you are and who you are inside
Is replete with value stature
It can not be diminished by
Your social status
your economic status
gender color or national heritage.
Your importance to the world and for yourself
is exponentially multiplied by the depths Of your sorrows you have experienced
Because of being cast aside looked aside thrown aside you are far more
Than what anyone will ever see here with earthly eyes
"I rode a rainbow of clouds and sunshine to get here carried by the joy and encapsulated PLEASURE to see your shining faces!"
The pure energy of seing you enlightened excelling and exuding a love for yourself and others
Brings light and life that no depression can penetrate.
Why would I do this?
Because I am compelled to

Are all things fully "considered"

I want to be mad I want to flail my arms kick and scream! I want to cry and say how UNFAIR life has been for me- but I can't. Its true - a truth- in the midst of other things going on.
We had a big "pow wow" today. I realize that I kept a lot in (past non disclosures) but I also told a lot. During that time in my life I was afraid- I was angry and no one could help me- or be
willing to.
I see and hear the apologetic words and wavering voices sorrowful for past infractions of faithful friendship, relationship and family. Most times I hear the silence of knowing what was wrong and how to correct it and no one moving toward "corrective action."
I waver emotionally blowing swirling in the wind of past present and future. I am none of those things fully but the sum of them all.
Waffle and chicken wings in mild sauce - that was my "dinner" I am aching physically and literally please God don't let this foolishness be the end of me.