Forgiveness and Prosody Tempest

I fully realize that without a doubt my faith has kept me. I fully understand that without some respect of hope and faith NO ONE will recover from any knowledge that has harmed them. Deep down inside is an inalienable desire to accomplish, to achieve to become. What we do not understand is that we already are what we hope to achieve. Even in the face of those that yell, beat, steal, lie and trick things from us that we did not wish to give.  What I have come to understand is that some, some of us, have the ability to emit an life effervescence so freely to the world. Then there are those who  TRY to take what they see in those who shine, only to hold an ephemeral and tainted mirage of the real thing. I forgive them freely and I forgive myself because the idea to trust is not wrong.  with that I am evolving again. 9 months of time have passed and so this season evolves prosody tempest.
I have to forgive because un-forgiveness was killing me, it was sucking me dry. The very light and life was  evaporating out of me in mass quantities. I have forgiven those named and unnamed faces that come before my eyes and cause me to shut them and still not get away from their faces. I have forgiven those who were my protectors and did not protect, those who used their position, titles and influence to gain from me in disguise what they could not have gotten from me even if they asked me.
Today I have to face my biggest battle which is to look at myself and say stop procrastinating, stop worrying about what someone will TAKE from you and get back in the process of giving.
Now, I ask for forgiveness from others because even though I have given I have held back one thing. Although throwing scraps from one time to another or spritzing you with a few words here and there I have absconded, been derelict in the duty to write. To write and share my writings was a charge given to me and I have ran, hid, and neglected this craft/gift with reckless abandon. That is changing.

Prosody Tempest